Insomnia and late night thoughts đ
by Sanela K. August 26, 2021
To my best, dearest, and most precious fans (which is probably only my neighbor's cat) one big HELLO from this tired, exhausted little "I-Just-Wanna-Sleep" middle-aged woman. đŽ
I know you may be tired of seeing all of my problems, but you are my therapy! I get a chance to release my anxiety and stress into words and, good or bad, you get to read them. I am having it really hard these days. A lot of stuff happened and mostly it has been stressful. Maybe that explains my lack of sleep. I am mostly lonely and at home, but it seems there is always something freakin' going on. I don't understand it at all..but some things can happen only to me. We know that. Remember that dog who fell in love with me on my vacation. Well, how many of you can actually brag about a dog falling in love with you and wanting a romantic relationship? đ none? That's what I thought! đ
I was pretty tired and "busy" with my weird side of my brain having a "party" every day. You know what I am talking about, right? đ đ We all have a cross to carry. đ this is mine.
Today I am writing to you from work, but this time I am helping in another facility because one of my co-workers is on vacation. I am kinda bored and sleepy. đŽđŽđŽđŽ The facility is a bit different but anyhow, it's only for today. đ
I have to share with you that we are having a pretty cold August here in Graz. AND I AM SO HAPPY ABOUT THAT! (well, at least something to be happy about đ). But it's still too early for my boots, but at least I can breathe again. Well, if we don't count stress. 2 days ago when I had a day off and I really needed food for "my brain". I wanted pancakes so badly!!!! Even though I am still on a diet, I ordered 4 pancakes and ate 3 of them. đ Yes, I did. Probably more calories then I ate for the last 3 days combined. đ But I really needed it. Emotionally I needed it. My stomach would have survived without pancakes but my brain hardly could go on. đ But now I am again back on a track. I am losing weight further slowly. I love to see how my legs got skinnier and I didn't have to gave up some of my favorite meals. At least not totally. đ
Everybody is trying to lose weight before summer. I started in the summer. đ I think I got a pretty late wake up call about my weight. đđđ But better late than never. When I was making photos of me in my Leviticus Fashions boots, I noticed that now I can zip them on much more easily, which wasn't really the case before. đđđ because my legs are thinner now. Thank God that He gave me this stubborn head not willing to give ups easily! đ
I would also like to mention that a random girl with some serious problems found me online and she just needed someone to talk to. Apparently she doesn't have anyone to understand her emotional pain and what she is going through. I am telling you this story just to try to reach more people who have some problems with mental health, or you may know someone who has these issues and is struggling. Please, be kind to yourself and be kind to those people. Everybody's soul can be in pain. In such serious pain that people cannot even deal with it anymore. Don't judge your friends, your family members or yourself. Just let us all be understanding and kind to each other. It's important. I know that because I am mostly alone in this journey of mine and I also met people who had zero understanding. That makes everything worse. You are not even aware how your judgmental side can hurt others. If there are two things that I have experience with, they are: BOOTS and mental health! đ I actually prefer extra long thigh boots, but let's be realistic, the boots bring us happiness, and the mental and emotional struggles are more difficult to deal with. So, keep wearing your Leviticus Fashions boots, be brave, be kind, go further and never give up! đ€
Love you all! Let's all try to be better versions of ourselves everyday. And to take a break when needed and just lay in bed and stare at our Leviticus Fashions boots!. đđ
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