Re-Direct Your Energy âĄ
by Sanela K. August 30, 2021
My favorite community! Where everything is just about boots! đ
Oh, I truly love this "our own world" here! đ Lately the only world without stress! I guess you are also coming to this blog to distract your mind from daily life. And you are in the right place! đ» This is an oasis of beauty and peace. đ Almost like you are alone on the beach, just listening to the sound of waves and feeling the wind and sand on your skin. How beautiful it is?!?!?!?!? đ
I think we all need a break from our daily lives. And just imagining this is wonderful! I am ashame to admit that I wasn't even dreaming or imagining lately. That's something that nobody should be able to take from us. It belongs to us. Those are secret parts of our souls.
After so much stress, disappointment, heartbreaks, "mind-breaks" and all other kind of "breaks", I finally re-directed my energy into some kind of "art". Into my photos, into this blog. Many years ago, I heard that artists need pain to create art and believe me, I used to be a good writer since I learned how to write, I also believed that truth about pain. I felt it. I lived it. My art back then was so much deeper, more beautiful and just mine. 7 years ago I survived a natural disaster where all my works of art were destroyed by a flood. And ever since that event, I have never written anything so deep again. It feels like I lost a part of myself. I did try, but never, ever achieved that level of great writing, great art. Today after one more "heartbreak", so furious, mad and almost aggressive, I decided to make a little home photoshooting. It was done in less then 30 mins but it felt good, kinda releasing. After such a long time, I succeeded to re-direct this negative energy into something positive!
And even though these photos are just amateur work, I achieved to show in one of them..... at least for a second.... how I feel. Like I am trying to go with my head through a wall. And I am tired of doing that. Well, if I am already trying to go with my head through the wall, at least I made sure to be dressed well and fashionably. đ I can't break the wall, but I can break my leg in the best boots ever! đ đ đ đ No, no, no breaking legs! đ
Yesterday I took one small step forward. I was supposed to meet a friend for a coffee and to bring her some things Of course, I had a new panic attack. I was already outside my apartment, closed the doors when I felt dizzy. I sat down with all my bags I needed to deliver to her and was thinking how I am gonna cancel our coffee. But then something amazing happened. I said to myself: "no, you are not going to cancel!" I looked at the sky then and said to God: "I know You are with me". I stood up and went to meet my friend.
When I got there, I was still nervous, under the effects of what happened earlier, and I didn't feel peaceful. I told her what happened and that I was still feeling weird and warned her, if something happens, she doesn't have to be scared or to call for an emergency. In that moment, she told me that her co-worker has the same problem and she understands it completely and I shouldn't be worried. Her words, her voice and the way she talked to me totally stopped my upcoming panic attack. I didn't even know that something like that is possible. But, apparently it is.
God sends you His "angels" to help you through the rough times. He is always with us. The day was great. She totally "transferred" her positive and peaceful energy to me. I was so thankful and told her that she isn't even aware what a big thing she had just done for me. Without planning, without knowing. She made my day. And I think I also made her day as well, because she was so glad to hear that she was able to help someone. See, and I almost gave that up while sitting in front of my door feeling oppressed and attacked. We should never give up. †And always trust in Him!
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