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Strong Enough?

by Sanela K. August 22, 2021


I hope this hot summer is finally over since we had a few days with lower temperatures and some rain. I am a rain (wo)man....... ๐ŸŒง except when I have to go outside, or I am outside, of course. ๐Ÿ˜† I think that's what a lack of social life turned me into. ๐Ÿ˜† I had 3 days off and I spent them in my apartment spending time with my old friends called panic attacks. ๐Ÿ˜ Those attacks had a lot of fun. ๐Ÿ™„ They got so wild I thought they drank some alcohol. ๐Ÿ™„ Well, at least someone had fun.


Anyhow those 3 days were still a bit better than today.. ๐Ÿ™ˆ I had, actually I am still having a bad day. I prefer bed and not bad, but it is what it is. If the shoe hits you, wear it like Cinderella. ๐Ÿ˜† It's the way I am dealing with it. But truly, all I wanna do is to sleep. ๐Ÿ˜† I just might get fired if I try it to get some sleep at work.


Sometimes I wish I lived in Japan. I heard they appreciate people who sleep at work because it means they worked hard. ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜… Sometimes I think I was born in the wrong country and probably in the wrong century. ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜… so "special" am I. For more than 2 years I have lived here and I still have a crappy social life and people are just running away from me. ๐Ÿ˜† But at least my neighbor's cat likes to cuddle with me. ๐Ÿ˜…Because I am such a difficult piece of art. Only a rare person can understand me. I am not really sure if that is something good or bad.....but it is my truth. ๐Ÿ˜

I cannot help to think about what are we doing in our lives and are we actually as strong as we seem?. I can remember myself, 10 years ago, falling apart but still, well dressed, with make up in the club, not letting anyone see there is something wrong in my life. Until I drink some poision. ๐Ÿ˜œ


I am not sure if I am still like that. Probably not. ๐Ÿคจ Since people can now notice my moods. Well, I guess that comes with age. ๐Ÿ˜ The older you get, things become a bits harder ๐Ÿ˜† such a beauty is life, right? ๐Ÿ˜‚

And I was "running" to grow up. To be honest, I miss the time when my biggest problem was if my parents are gonna buy me that doll I really wanted. ๐Ÿ˜ Now I am seeing only creepy dolls while watching shows and as usual, I am dreaming of ghosts ๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ™„๐Ÿ™„ I knew if I wasn't careful about what I was watching on video, it's gonna be like that but I kept pushing it. I fell into the trap of temptation. ๐Ÿ™ˆ


Last night I was like: "oh, why my TV still didn't turn off by itself after I didn't watch it for a longer time. Do I have a ghost here??????????" ๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜…๐Ÿ˜… Well, I didn't have ghost but for sure I had a crazy drunk neighbor singing on his balcony till midnight! ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ Oh, I enjoyed the show when our other super sensitive neigbor from the first floor got out to scream at him. ๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜†๐Ÿ˜† And he still didn't stop singing! He started to sing the songs with her name in them!!!! ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ๐Ÿคฃ


I kinda like when someone is playing with her nerves. ๐Ÿ™ˆ Because she is really always over-reacting! I mean, okay, last night it was really loud and inappropriate, but she has been going crazy for much smaller things and threatening to call the police all the time. ๐Ÿ˜‚ Karma! ๐Ÿ˜‚


Today, before I went to work, I used the opportunity, finally after 3 days I am actually not in my pajamas, to make some photos in my boots!!! ๐Ÿ˜


I was planning actually to do much many more photos and videos these days but like I said, my "friends" had other plans. ๐Ÿ˜† So, it is what it is. ๐Ÿ˜‹ But at least I am still getting myself into good shape! Don't you dare NOT NOTICE it!!!!!






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To watch videos of my Adventures in Thigh Boots on Leviticus Fashions YouTube channel go to : https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCN8FNLtdob_AKkErNok5_eg



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