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by Sanela K. March 5, 2021
Do you remember a singer from Israel who won the Eurovision song contest few years ago ???? She was singing "I am not your toy, you stupid boy" đ
Can you remember how huge she was? We all thought she is gonna break the scene that year! đđđđ
Well, she just crossed my mind (NOT BECAUSE I LIKE THE SONG - I DON'T!!!!!)!!!!!!!! because after this morning I feel huge! đČ
I don't fit my last season pants anymore! đđđđđđđđđđđđđđđđđ
I think this Christmas (and also after đ) I was doing too much "eating for sport" and enjoying the pleasures of this world đœđđđđ§đđźđ„đ„đČđđ°đ©
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Last year at this time, I bought some pants in Zara and I haven't worn them for a long time, because I prefer dresses and skirts. And guess what happened with the pants?!?!?! - I couldn't zip them up!
I barely put them on over my hips and I couldn't zip them! I thought: "oh, did I wash them on a too high temperature so they got smaller?????" - SUCH A LAME QUESTION BY EVERY PERSON EVER WHO GAINED SOME UNWANTED WEIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! đ
I almost wanted to cry when I realized I just gained that much weight! đą
Since I was a fat kid (yes, fat kid), I always had a complex about my weight! đ
Also when I was a little kid I loved to eat. Too much! đ
So, during puberty and my time of becoming an adult I been battling with my kilograms!
Also when I lost a lot of my extra weight, I still thought I was fat! Now when I see those old pictures, I realize just how skinny I actually was - but back then I had totally a wrong perception of myself! It's weird how your own complexes can make you blind. đź
Anyhow, in the last 7 years, I have really accepted myself and stopped bothering myself (that much) about my weight because I was just a normal, average healthy young lady. But I always had some "precautions" to not get fat or to lose 1 or 2 kgs. And it worked!
I also became aware that even when I gain some extra weight, I don't look fat anymore (because I am not a kid any longer!) and I can resolve it with a few months of watching what and when I eat.
I really beat my own complex!
There is a funny story how I realized that I became a self confident young woman over time.
Three years ago I had a "boyfriend" (or something like that đ) and he wasn't really my type (if we talk about looks). He was kinda REALLY short, but there was something really sympathetic about him and his way of thinking and handling stuff so I gave it a chance!
Well, after a while it turned out that he really had a complex about his height đ which would be okay because we all have some type of complex, but he started projecting it onto me. The worst thing you can do is to project your own complexes onto other people instead of accepting yourself as you are.
He started telling me how fat I was. đ
WHEN I WAS ACTUALLY SKINNY!!!! đđđ
Once he said: "look, I have much nicer đ then you!"
Or: "look this woman running, you should run too, you would look much better. "đ
Or: "oh, you are eating a cookie, that makes people fat!!!! "đ
OR: "why don't you eat only once per day? You would lose weight like that!" đđđđ
Okay, those are only a few "quotes" from him, but there was much more that I can't even remember anymore.
The whole time I was with him that was hilarious to me. First I thought: okay, what's happening!?!
Then I realized he is just a little sad man. đ
I can remember once, after he said something like that to me, I was LITERALLY thinking: "oh, boy, look at yourself before you criticize others." đđđđ
I didn't say that out loud because I wouldn't insult someone like that (that was his "job"), but that totally was in my mind. đ
Anyhow, that's how that dating story met it's end. đ
And it was at that time when I realized how strong and self confident I had become. And that was the time when I realized I really had beaten my own weight complex and I didn't see the wrong perception of myself anymore.
If I had been only a little bit weaker I would have ended up in tears and starving myself to death.
But, thank God, I was strong! đ
Even now when I cannot fit my last season's pants, I am not depressed, but now I am gonna do what I have been always doing - get on my diet. No late snacks and no more full portions! đ Because that works the best for me to have a healthy lifestyle.
The good news is that I still fit into my boots! Pants are kinda cheap in comparison to boots. I can always buy another pair of pants, but I have to save a lot longer for new high quality fashion boots. đđđ
But, I am not gonna throw away my pants. I will keep them for a time when I lose these extra 2-3 kgs of mine. đ
Those 2-3 kgs are NOT ALLOWED to stay! Summer is coming!!! And also my last season short pants and skirts are waiting for me to fit into them!
Wish me luck guys! This is gonna take a while because I am not doing any big exercising at the gym due to covid, and I have zero motivation to work out at home. For running - I HAVE NO SHOES! Yes, exactly, I don't have running shoes, or clothes for that! đ
Anyhow, maybe when the weather is warmer, I will get myself some sporty clothes and shoes for running, but right now for me it's still too cold outside.
Until then I am keeping my planking challenge going. đ
Today is day 24 of that planking challenge and now I am gonna try to plank for 2 minutes đ
I am not really convinced that I can hold a plank for 2 minutes, but let's see. đ
I wanna show you a very small part of my "daily dying". There won't be a video yet but I can show you a picture for nowđ
Apparently I am not dying enough since my pants don't fit yet. đ Notice how my boot children are always there to support me in my life's ups and downs!
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